Early Rebellion Against the Academy

Sam Bowers: By age 15 I was deeply suspicious of the academy. I did not know then the reasons for my suspicion--that the banking system controls the academy--but I felt the degeneracy of this viscerally. I was a hyper-child; I did not want to grow up. I tolerated school, I suppose, because it offered me social contacts--friends, a place to play ball, hanging out with folks, etc. But the authorities there were bent on making impositions on my childhood, and I despised them for this.

My mother was a very educated lady for her day. She instilled in me a love of the majesty of language, and persisted, albeit shrewdly and cunningly, that I abstain from reading trash like comic books and dime store novels. She did not dogmatically state her views, but would say things like, 'you would be so much better off reading the classics.' She had a gentle way about her. She was a master psychologists in this manner. 'I know you aren't terribly interested in school, ' she might say, 'but please try to do better. This time will be over soon enough.' I would/should have loved her and given her more slack. She was very interested in my getting a good education; she'd go to PTA meetings and one of my teachers might pull her aside and say to her: 'Oh Mrs. Bowers, Sam has so much potential if he'd just apply himself.' 1 did not want to hurt my mother. But I secretly enjoyed the fact that I was not doing well in school; that I was confounding my teachers; that I was not doing what I L wanted. This gave me some sense of power at a time I felt fully powerless and at the mercy of the stronger authorities. They could not socially stigmatize me because I succeeded in frustrating the adult world. I enjoyed frustrating the adult world, which was constantly interfering with my childhood mission. That was a predestined formation, which shaped me

and shapes me to this day. I have a childlike outlook; I reject the adult system! And I think most of the great leaders of our nation did as well--Tom-Tom--and ?--Douglas McArthur. All these guys were mama's boys. All these guys were children to the end.

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